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What it feels like [Jun. 12th, 2004|11:53 pm]
Another thing I had lying around, I wrote it at work the day before my big appointment with my GP (to tell them about my gender dysphoria). It's me trying to find some words for how I feel, because I know I'm going to be asked that question many times in the future.

It's like an avalanche, just a slow rubble to start with, then louder and louder, until it's all you can think about, then it engulfs you and buries you. That very confusing and you panic but at some point you know you are going to have to dig yourself out, and that's hard, maybe you will make it to the surface, maybe you will not, if you do make it, it just gets you back to the level other people started at.